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Tuesday, April 4th, 2006

Subject:some open-ness
Time:1:22 pm.
As of recent times I've been thinking alot about change, and things that I want to do/change. Now, I'm setting that into motion, I'm sick of feeling empty. I will have my honor, unlike 90% of this country (maybe even world).

This primarily goes out to 2 people, 1 of which won't read this. I suppose want to apologize to the people who I've hurt, lately. I'm a dumbass and I get wrapped up into things I shouldn't be, instead of sticking to our plans and ruining things between us.

I really don't understand why I seem to always be the one who's taken granted for. The one who's always looked right passed, like I'm never even fucking there; invisible. I'm just kicked to the side like I'm some sort of peon. What the fuck is it with you?! Cuz I sure as hell don't get it.

I have so much strength (mind and body) within me and you all fail to fucking see it. You will one day realize this and crawl back, full of regret for what you have done to me. And, when that day comes I will simply laugh in your face.
Producing Mayhem

Tuesday, March 28th, 2006

Subject:guess what?
Time:11:21 pm.
Last night, I got really sick, it turned out to be food poisoning from Taco Bell at m-59 and Schoenerr. I now vow to never eat Taco Bell again. :) Anyways, I puked a shit load of times and thennn... I shit my pants. yup, I'm 19 years old and I shit my pants. hahaha. After that, I proceeded to take the biggest shit of my entire life, it was like chunky mud water. that is all.

food poisoning
1. puked alot.
2. I SHIT MY PANTS.
3. biggest poop of my life.
6 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Monday, February 13th, 2006

Subject:Shorewood.
Time:12:20 am.
Well, this weekend I went with A Second Too Late and crew to Wisconsin to play a show. I must say it was a great time, those kids know how to have fun, that's for sure. Show was great, and the party was even better. I wanna give a big thanks to ASTL for having me come out... I had a blast, it was a great way to top off a shitty week with nothing but good fun.
2 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Friday, February 10th, 2006

Subject:welp.
Time:12:49 pm.
I give up.
3 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Tuesday, February 7th, 2006

Subject:where am I?
Time:11:29 pm.
I don't know what it is... but I really don't like my life right now.
2 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Sunday, February 5th, 2006

Subject:listen up.
Time:12:41 am.
you don't fucking know me or my life, nobody fucking does. you all can shove it right up your ass.
4 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Monday, January 9th, 2006

Subject:ain't dat da truf.
Time:1:55 am.
Mood: blah.
It really sucks when you have to work at 6am, your house is 1/2 hour away from your work, and you can't sleep.
1 Machine| Producing Mayhem

Friday, December 30th, 2005

Subject:yea.
Time:3:43 pm.
Well, as of late things haven't exactly been too great.

Although my probation is now over, and Old Navy is keeping me rather than being just seasonal help.

In other aspects of life, alot of them suck, or aren't as good as they should be.

My band needs to find a new place to jam, get more shows (we barely play any), we need to get merch, and some other shit off the ground, too. I know the others in the band love me, but alot of times I feel so left out. Like I'm the "least favorite" is the best way I could put it, Rob, Steve, Justin, and Brutal Matt are all so close, and I'm just kinda standing in corner waiting to be talked to. I know that alot of that has to do with the fact that I'm not around as much as I'd like to be becuz of where I live.

Lately, I've been in horrible moods, taking them out on others and myself. Sometimes I can't help it becuz I do bury alot of emotions, and it's very hard for me to speak up and put my feelings into words. I've buried emotions for so long, I know that I'm good at hiding it. Nobody cares to see that, I feel things very deeply and strongly. Most people only see what's on the surface, but not what I have that's farther than skin deep. My unhappiness is tearing me apart, it's caused me to make improper desicisions and lead myself onto a path I don't want to be. I know that I and only I can change that, but having some support from ones who are clsoe to me would help.

I'm pretty much broke, and haven't been managing the money I do have very well. I'm supposed to sign up for school but of course, I wait til last minute and I'm gonna get the shittiest classes at the shitties times. I want to go to school but at the same time, I totally fucking don't. I'm not relying on the band to bail me out, I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket. It's becuz I've fucked up some much throughout school I feel as if there's no possible way for me to make it all up.

For awhile now, I've had this desire to meet new friends or at least regain old ones I was very fond of. Yet it seems that other than the band, nobody wants anything to do with me. That hurts, I don't know what's so bad about me. I try to be friendly, or whatever. And as everyone else, I can be an asshole, one of the biggest you'll ever know, but I believe and know that I'm generally nice, fun, caring guy. So, I constantly wonder why nobody ever wants to hang out with me or anything. Apparently though, to others who were close to me, I'm just a selfish bastard whom just takes advantage. On the inside, that's not me at all.

This really sucks, I've been so fed up lately and lost so much confidence and what not that, for the first time in a long time, I'm finally breaking down, nad here I sit writing in my LJ as if someone actually gives a shit.


not really done but I'm calling it quits for now.
4 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Friday, December 23rd, 2005

Subject:God does love me! lmao
Time:1:52 pm.
So last night, I was driving northbound on Utica road, by 13 mile and I got pulled over for doing 45 in a 35. The cop comes to my car, does the standard liscense and registration, and goes back to his car. He comes back and says "You should go to church." and I was like "what?! why?!" and he goes, "I ran out of tickets and that' the only reason you're not getting one right now, have a nice night." I almost shit my pants, PHEW! FUCK YEA!

tainted eyes: dont fucking talk to me ever again
ok, no problem, I've wanted to do that for a long, long time. I should have done that a long, long time ago, too. I'm done with you, enough is enough. I don't give a fuck and I'll be sure to keep it that way.
g'bye.
Producing Mayhem

Wednesday, December 21st, 2005

Subject:I said it yesterday, and I'ma say it again.
Time:11:53 pm.
2006 is a year of change. lots.
Producing Mayhem

Monday, December 19th, 2005

Subject:newest song's lyrics
Time:3:52 pm.
'B' to the 4th PowerCollapse )
1 Machine| Producing Mayhem

Friday, December 9th, 2005

Subject:oh before I forget.
Time:12:45 am.
My current favorite song right now is my band's newest " 'B' to the 4th Power" It is simply incredible, the definition of brutality. I fucking love it!!!!!

"I'm bruised, battered, and broken.
I'm bruised, battered, blasphemy."
Producing Mayhem

Subject:smurnoff akdov
Time:12:19 am.
Last nite I went to Clutch (for the 1st time in fucking forever) with Jman, Matt, and (va)Gina to see As I Lay Dying, Norma Jean, Madball, and A Life once Lost. ALOL was alright, didn't play my favorite song and their singer sucks my balls. Madball was alright, nothin' special but did play "Set It Off," Norma Jean's new shit = gay, old stuff was the fucking shit! AILD was sick, too, my 4th time seeing them live, and they are yet to disappoint me. Lots of dancing at Clutch, and even a chick fight broke out that was hilarious.
1 Machine| Producing Mayhem

Monday, December 5th, 2005

Subject:winner!
Time:12:32 pm.
So for like 4 years my dad has been giving me vegas betting slips for pro and college football. I never do college, just pro. You pick 4 to 10, and after you pick your teams you put how much money you want on each ticket, starting at $1. Well, usually I do 2 slips consisting of 5 teams, well this week I chose to do 2 slips of 5 and one of 7. Turns out I fucking won on my slip of 7, in which I bet $2, therefore I won $80!!!! First time I ever won, yea, it's fuckin' sweet.
2 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Thursday, November 24th, 2005

Subject:People who had 500 extra bucks.
Time:3:49 am.
Yea, if you bought an Xbox 360, do one of the following 2, either...
A) Give me it.
or
B)Let me come over and play it with you.

THANKS!
1 Machine| Producing Mayhem

Monday, November 14th, 2005

Subject:concerto
Time:11:59 am.
On saturday I went to Harpo's and saw Amon Amarth, Trivium, and Children of Bodom... bad ass show!!!
7 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Tuesday, November 1st, 2005

Subject:if ya'll haven't notced
Time:2:38 am.
I have trouble controlling my anger, and it's easy for me to unleash my fury. I wasn't in anger management for 2 years for nothing. Anyways, I apologize.
1 Machine| Producing Mayhem

Sunday, October 30th, 2005

Subject:your one fair warning, pal.
Time:5:45 am.
To whoever is the friend of Michelle Joly whom lifted Gina up at a party and, if you ask me, deliberately dropped her onto a coffee table. Which split open her eyebrow (potentially needs stitches), cut her eye lid, and gave her a bad rug burn on her knee. If and when I see you, I am going to lay you the fuck out. No guy should ever hurt a girl physically. you've made a huge mistake and man, you've got hell to pay.
6 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Tuesday, October 25th, 2005

Subject:my 19th
Time:2:53 am.
Well, my bday turned out to be pretty fuckin' sweet. In fact, it was one of the best, if not the best I've ever had. I went and saw Slipknot, As I lay Dying, and Unearth at the State Theatre with Jman and Rob#1. It was a damn good show, finally saw Unearth and they were bad ass!

I've decided that I'm going to set alot of goals to achieve by the time I'm 20 and I will fucking do it. the past year hasn't been so great and I intend on turning that around now.

P.S. Thanks to everyone who commented on my last entry wishing me a happy birthday!
4 Machines| Producing Mayhem

Monday, October 24th, 2005

Subject:go, go, go, go
Time:2:09 pm.
it's my 19th birthday today!
18 Machines| Producing Mayhem

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